If you Beg You will get Alms!

For ages, men have looked for easier ways to name and fame.I am no different. Yes I have looked for the canopy to provide me shade from the vagaries of life.But does a leafless and rootless canopy ever give a shade?
The Pandavs did not get from Didrashtra.They should have known a blind man see nothing except himself.Let thousand enemies get the kingdom, but just five villages to the pandavs? Huh! not even the land in length of needle.
You have to fight your own battles. Let this be mine. If you beg, you will get alms, not your due. The voice from the top says, " कोई किसी को राज न दे है, जो ले है निज बल से ले है"

किसको क़ातिल मैं कहूँ किसको मसीहा समझूँ,
सब यहाँ दोस्त ही बैठे हैं किसे क्या समझूँ ।

वो भी क्या दिन थे कि हर वहम यक़ीं होता था,
अब हक़ीक़त नज़र आए तो उसे क्या समझूँ ।

दिल जो टूटा तो कल हाथ दुआ को उठे,
ऐसे माहौल में अब किसको पराया समझूँ ।

ज़ुल्म ये है के है यक़ता तेरी बेगानारवी,
लुत्फ़ ये है के मैं अब तक तुझे अपना समझूँ ।

मुझको भी तरकीब सिखा यार जुलाहे
- Gulzar

अकसर तुझको देखा है कि ताना बुनते
जब कोइ तागा टुट गया या खत्म हुआ
फिर से बांध के
और सिरा कोई जोड़ के उसमे
आगे बुनने लगते हो
तेरे इस ताने में लेकिन
इक भी गांठ गिराह बुन्तर की
देख नहीं सकता कोई

मैनें तो ईक बार बुना था एक ही रिश्ता
लेकिन उसकी सारी गिराहे
साफ नजर आती हैं मेरे यार जुलाहे

Karl Marx was quite relevant in discovering the true nature of human being. Man wants to work in the society. The trouble however is the conflict between the labor and the appropriation of the fruits of this labor.Today was the day when I realized how true my mentor was...
It has been a few days and I realized that without your dad (I wish he had not done that historic blunder) in this profession, you are no good than a baby lost in a big bazaar, lookin for his mother. Today came a AAM Admi with his usual tale of woes....my powerful neighbor is hell bent to encroach upon my liberties, he said.
Yes I had a relief for him...It was time to close the office..but you know our seniors...file a suit for injunction..prompt came the orders...
Finally, it was 2 hours of typing that brought out the brief..Let aAlah be praised, the law is on his side..
I felt strange ecstasy in helping him although I got not even a penny (How right Marx was)

I was thinking that one need not be depressed being a lawyer without dad strings..we have nothing to lose, but our blood and sweat!

Its a season for nuptials for some and proposals for others.Ofcourse I find the marriages interesting (And why not???), exciting (Looking for someone!), full of possibilities and entertaining.But suddenly I stop to think..how could they, how can they, no no, this is eerie, two unknowns and a bond for ages??? Were they together in previous birth too?? Where is the love, the romance, the excitement....will it come after marriage....the other day I appeared for a divorce proceedings....what happened to them?
Pata nahin yaar, there is an emptiness in this heart......." कभी कभी मेरे दिल में ख्याल आता है ......."

दिल ऐ नादान तुझे हुआ क्या है,
आख़िर इस दर्द की दवा की है,
हम को उन से वफ़ा की है उम्मीद,
जो नहीं जानते की वफ़ा क्या है,
जब की तुझ बिन नहीं मौजूद,
फिर ये हंगामा ऐ खुदा क्या है,
जान तुम पर निसार करता हूँ,
मैं नहीं जानता दुआ क्या है!!

I am unable to sleep today....either the night is too long or the unending maze of my thoughts.There is a small child crying for a roti somewhere...and I thought not even once while spending at Macdonalds. That rickshawala was so happy, singing my favourite mukesh number, with a load of 3 people on his feet. And I cant take the burden of a few sheets of paper? Vaakil sahib, you can be as happy as you want to be....this black colour is not to be stuck with coatroom files! Remember the face of that old women who came to you for justice...Hunnn you got the talisman....but when will my heart get justice??????